Bonjour lovey doveys how are you all?
Maaaaaajor quick post here (nothing new there?) just to say Hiiiiii and how are you and an update - officially examination free (until May) AHHHYESSSS! Freedom feels amazing! Had a lovely lie in this morning and sat about just enjoying relaxation time! No stress, no sitting at a desk all day eating crappy food and getting a sore head, just chilling - it was wonderfully simple :)
Hope your exams went/or are going well! Keep up the hard work, it's a great relief when it's all done :)
Good luck for your results and have a wonderful mini break in February - happy valentines and what not! :)
AU REVOIR!!!!
(for now!) :)
x x x
Saturday 28 January 2012
Monday 16 January 2012
Aloha Homies!
Quick Howdy do da from me this fine evening!
Had a big old exam today (yucky yuck) although I may be feeling a tad confident about it...I'm really unsure! Only time will tell! Hope I've got the grade deserved.. not going to lie.. I put a good lot of work into that! I'm just very happy it's over and done with for now :) Just one more to go!
How are you all? Hope your exams or assignments or whatever you guys are doing are going all swell and well! Keep going and there will be a light at the end of the tunnel - atleast if you work as hard as you can and cover as much work as possible, you can give yourself a pat on the back in the end, even if the result isn't so great, you did your best :)
Good luck in this stressful exam season!!
and have a wonderful January! (ewwww haha I hate January!!)
AU REVOIR!
ADIOS!
CIAO FOR NOW :)
x x x
Had a big old exam today (yucky yuck) although I may be feeling a tad confident about it...I'm really unsure! Only time will tell! Hope I've got the grade deserved.. not going to lie.. I put a good lot of work into that! I'm just very happy it's over and done with for now :) Just one more to go!
How are you all? Hope your exams or assignments or whatever you guys are doing are going all swell and well! Keep going and there will be a light at the end of the tunnel - atleast if you work as hard as you can and cover as much work as possible, you can give yourself a pat on the back in the end, even if the result isn't so great, you did your best :)
Good luck in this stressful exam season!!
and have a wonderful January! (ewwww haha I hate January!!)
AU REVOIR!
ADIOS!
CIAO FOR NOW :)
x x x
Friday 6 January 2012
Barble Barble, DEEP DEEP DEEP!!
Hello lovely lovely readers :)
I'll get straight to the point, it's 12.05am and I'm just about to hit the sack, although for some strange reason I felt like blogging. Hmf, who knows what you'll get in this post then?! How exciting/worrying all the same!!
I hope you are all doing fabbylossa! I am quite cheery myself which is strange as I'm going through a rather stressful month - exams my dears, EXAMS!! the dreaded word. It's pretty bad, I have a hell-of-a-lot to be doing, all in the same subject, so many topics. Curse you A-levels for destroying my 2012 already! But on the plus side, I don't much mind 2012 so far, it's been rather jolly...!
Happy New Year guys, how's your 2012 going? For me, it's like it could be anything better than what has past. Gosh how I hated 2011. It was just a pretty awful year for me. There was school stress, major friendship break ups at the beginning, family death, an almost death with a friend who luckily escaped, and an ongoing illness which we heard had become worse. So much negativity I do apologise! Although summer 2011 was absolutely fantastic, one of my most favourite summers. No holiday or anything, just an absolutely amazing time with close friends and going out and having just.. laughs! Freedom! Another crappy thing about 2011 - the stresses of driving too began! It was just a very stressful and emotional year for me, one I did not enjoy and was quite happy to see the back of :)
2012 started a bit dull, New years eve on the razzle started a little crappy, just in general a night out not going so great but my goodness how we turned it around! Shows all you need is some drinks, a dance floor and amazing friends who can brighten up any situation and it was incredible!! Lovely way to begin my year :)
The stressful driving continues sadly, but I would like to gladly announce I AM ALMOST THERE!!! Seems so strange, I remember the exact day when I was in my living room on my laptop and was in the mood for a random blog. I remember typing about driving (then I hadn't started) ... I could go and find the post now and read it and juggle my memory! I can't remember what I titled it exactly... anyways, I was talking about how I hoped to start driving, how I was determined to do it, how in the back of my head it was something so many people around me, my age especially, were doing and I'd be so annoyed if I didn't give it a go! I had to do it now or it would never happen. Although, writing that post, I had it in the back of my head that I wouldn't do it. Ofcourse I wouldn't. I wouldn't ring the instructor - I don't do things like that. I don't have a job, I'm pretty awkward socially, (not in a totally rare bear way haha, just I don't... do things?). Well it's just strange that's all, that I've done it I mean. Might seem so ridiculous to many of you but that's a pretty big deal for me and I am awfully proud of myself for... conquering it we can say! (sounds fancy and cool! haha)
Ofcourse, I haven't yet passed, that will be the ultimate cherry on the cake of amazingness! It has been booked though, I'll keep my mouth zipped on the date information! GOOD LUCK TO MEEEE!
I'm very lucky you know, it's pretty incredible when you sort of just realise. How lucky you are I mean. When it sort of just settles on you or something. It happened to me on christmas day (it was the night time, probs like 9-10pm?) and we were all on the sofa, well they all were, my siblings that is, and their partners! and I was across the room in an arm chair. We were all watching a film and it was dark and the fire was burning and there were wine glasses resting on the table, crumbs scattered on the rug and blankets strewn around their legs and my legs too on the separate arm chair. It was just cosy. And I'd be watching the movie but then I just looked over at them, I don't know why or what particular moment but I just looked at them. It was the strangest moment guys.. I can't even describe it. I sort of wanted to cry or something. I just watched them and their faces changing and mouths twitching and eyes blinking and legs fidgeting, just watching the film. But strange thoughts went through my mind, something along the lines of... what will I be doing on this exact time, christmas day, next year? And the year after? and 10 years after that? and if I'm with my new very own family will I tell them about my past Christmases? And will I remember this moment? Or won't I? And I sort of forced myself to remember it. It was so strange, I felt so sad at the possibility that I could forget it... So I just stared at them and sort of took a mental picture in my mind, just of how lovely and comfortable and safe and loving the moment was. I hope I remember that and do tell people of it.. ahh it was surreal I can't explain.
Christmas was incredible too. Wasn't one of those exciting gift sort of Christmases - I didn't get the classic "gadget" gift of a new phone, or a Wii, or a kindle or a camera. I just got so many lovely things in a bag that just epitomised me :) I love when you get lots of gifts that are made for you, like as though when the person was looking for your present and spotted the gift they said "yes, that has to be it! It's just so...her!" - it is lovely.
And Christmas flew in, there wasn't the big run up to it, I wasn't excited or didn't even feel as though I was in the season. Next thing KABAAAAMMMMER it was on us so fast! Somehow that made it more enjoyable :) No disappointment because there was no expectation.
I can honestly say I'm pretty happy at the moment. Right now and just around this time. I stressed to crap you guys you have no idea!! haha, but yeah, hm, I'm content too :) I am surrounded by lovely people and am blessed with so many opportunities and options. There's so many things I still want and feel I need when obviously I don't but it kind of makes me feel humble to put them at the back of my mind and be working on revision and voluntarily putting myself in the environment of study and what not. I thoroughly hope I can do myself proud - no kidding!! I can only imagine the feeling at summer when I get my results and can take a sigh of relief like "yes, you are officially going to the university you have pictured yourself at for as long as you can remember!" it will be.... incredible really...!
But how scary it is too to leave my routine that I've been cosied in for 7 years, 7 years at
grammar school in the same uniform everyday the same thing the same people the same rooms the same path. It will be so odd. So scary the idea of meeting new people and starting afresh - I plan to be absolutely 100% myself but it's not that I never was, I just kind of....fail to let my 100% come out until about a good month of meeting someone. I just want to throw it out there and be noticed and remembered and recognised :) instead of sort of fading in the background for a good few months due to shyness, and then going out there, and it sort of being too late, if you know what I mean..
What.. what even was that!! Ha ha, ahh anyways, it's late and I've gone all deep and I hope this doesn't affect my sleep.. I AM A VERY TIRED LADY!!
Throw me a comment if you are reading :) I would love to thank you and meet you!
Thanks again lovely people for sticking with me,
Ciao for now ;)
x x x
I'll get straight to the point, it's 12.05am and I'm just about to hit the sack, although for some strange reason I felt like blogging. Hmf, who knows what you'll get in this post then?! How exciting/worrying all the same!!
I hope you are all doing fabbylossa! I am quite cheery myself which is strange as I'm going through a rather stressful month - exams my dears, EXAMS!! the dreaded word. It's pretty bad, I have a hell-of-a-lot to be doing, all in the same subject, so many topics. Curse you A-levels for destroying my 2012 already! But on the plus side, I don't much mind 2012 so far, it's been rather jolly...!
Happy New Year guys, how's your 2012 going? For me, it's like it could be anything better than what has past. Gosh how I hated 2011. It was just a pretty awful year for me. There was school stress, major friendship break ups at the beginning, family death, an almost death with a friend who luckily escaped, and an ongoing illness which we heard had become worse. So much negativity I do apologise! Although summer 2011 was absolutely fantastic, one of my most favourite summers. No holiday or anything, just an absolutely amazing time with close friends and going out and having just.. laughs! Freedom! Another crappy thing about 2011 - the stresses of driving too began! It was just a very stressful and emotional year for me, one I did not enjoy and was quite happy to see the back of :)
2012 started a bit dull, New years eve on the razzle started a little crappy, just in general a night out not going so great but my goodness how we turned it around! Shows all you need is some drinks, a dance floor and amazing friends who can brighten up any situation and it was incredible!! Lovely way to begin my year :)
The stressful driving continues sadly, but I would like to gladly announce I AM ALMOST THERE!!! Seems so strange, I remember the exact day when I was in my living room on my laptop and was in the mood for a random blog. I remember typing about driving (then I hadn't started) ... I could go and find the post now and read it and juggle my memory! I can't remember what I titled it exactly... anyways, I was talking about how I hoped to start driving, how I was determined to do it, how in the back of my head it was something so many people around me, my age especially, were doing and I'd be so annoyed if I didn't give it a go! I had to do it now or it would never happen. Although, writing that post, I had it in the back of my head that I wouldn't do it. Ofcourse I wouldn't. I wouldn't ring the instructor - I don't do things like that. I don't have a job, I'm pretty awkward socially, (not in a totally rare bear way haha, just I don't... do things?). Well it's just strange that's all, that I've done it I mean. Might seem so ridiculous to many of you but that's a pretty big deal for me and I am awfully proud of myself for... conquering it we can say! (sounds fancy and cool! haha)
Ofcourse, I haven't yet passed, that will be the ultimate cherry on the cake of amazingness! It has been booked though, I'll keep my mouth zipped on the date information! GOOD LUCK TO MEEEE!
I'm very lucky you know, it's pretty incredible when you sort of just realise. How lucky you are I mean. When it sort of just settles on you or something. It happened to me on christmas day (it was the night time, probs like 9-10pm?) and we were all on the sofa, well they all were, my siblings that is, and their partners! and I was across the room in an arm chair. We were all watching a film and it was dark and the fire was burning and there were wine glasses resting on the table, crumbs scattered on the rug and blankets strewn around their legs and my legs too on the separate arm chair. It was just cosy. And I'd be watching the movie but then I just looked over at them, I don't know why or what particular moment but I just looked at them. It was the strangest moment guys.. I can't even describe it. I sort of wanted to cry or something. I just watched them and their faces changing and mouths twitching and eyes blinking and legs fidgeting, just watching the film. But strange thoughts went through my mind, something along the lines of... what will I be doing on this exact time, christmas day, next year? And the year after? and 10 years after that? and if I'm with my new very own family will I tell them about my past Christmases? And will I remember this moment? Or won't I? And I sort of forced myself to remember it. It was so strange, I felt so sad at the possibility that I could forget it... So I just stared at them and sort of took a mental picture in my mind, just of how lovely and comfortable and safe and loving the moment was. I hope I remember that and do tell people of it.. ahh it was surreal I can't explain.
Christmas was incredible too. Wasn't one of those exciting gift sort of Christmases - I didn't get the classic "gadget" gift of a new phone, or a Wii, or a kindle or a camera. I just got so many lovely things in a bag that just epitomised me :) I love when you get lots of gifts that are made for you, like as though when the person was looking for your present and spotted the gift they said "yes, that has to be it! It's just so...her!" - it is lovely.
And Christmas flew in, there wasn't the big run up to it, I wasn't excited or didn't even feel as though I was in the season. Next thing KABAAAAMMMMER it was on us so fast! Somehow that made it more enjoyable :) No disappointment because there was no expectation.
I can honestly say I'm pretty happy at the moment. Right now and just around this time. I stressed to crap you guys you have no idea!! haha, but yeah, hm, I'm content too :) I am surrounded by lovely people and am blessed with so many opportunities and options. There's so many things I still want and feel I need when obviously I don't but it kind of makes me feel humble to put them at the back of my mind and be working on revision and voluntarily putting myself in the environment of study and what not. I thoroughly hope I can do myself proud - no kidding!! I can only imagine the feeling at summer when I get my results and can take a sigh of relief like "yes, you are officially going to the university you have pictured yourself at for as long as you can remember!" it will be.... incredible really...!
But how scary it is too to leave my routine that I've been cosied in for 7 years, 7 years at
grammar school in the same uniform everyday the same thing the same people the same rooms the same path. It will be so odd. So scary the idea of meeting new people and starting afresh - I plan to be absolutely 100% myself but it's not that I never was, I just kind of....fail to let my 100% come out until about a good month of meeting someone. I just want to throw it out there and be noticed and remembered and recognised :) instead of sort of fading in the background for a good few months due to shyness, and then going out there, and it sort of being too late, if you know what I mean..
What.. what even was that!! Ha ha, ahh anyways, it's late and I've gone all deep and I hope this doesn't affect my sleep.. I AM A VERY TIRED LADY!!
Throw me a comment if you are reading :) I would love to thank you and meet you!
Thanks again lovely people for sticking with me,
Ciao for now ;)
x x x
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