I never thought I'd actually be doing a post related to this kind of thing.. but weirdly I kind of want to as I think I'm having a little problem with this myself!
Weight is a big issue for teenagers, all of them! Well at least this is what I always heard although honestly, weight has never been an issue for me, ever. I don't want to sound boastful or anything because this has changed, but I can tell you a bit on the background boring stuff first :)
My family aren't huge, they're definitely bigger built than me. They've all had weight issues, endless diets, exercising etc and well I guess I can say I'm lucky as I've never been there. I'm a completely different build from my family; I'm much taller and lankier and well, much thinner. I'm just a petite tall build really. I love food, it's not like I've made myself tall and thin, it's just how I was born and stuff. I eat lots of cake and snack a lot, I really enjoy socializing over dinner, love eating out and having a sit down meal etc. I enjoy my food a lot and tend to even eat for enjoyment, rather than when I'm hungry. I'm not overly active either; I walk sometimes but I don't purposely exercise or anything (like go on the running machine or go to the gym... not my style!).
All this was how I lived and nothing changed. I ate ate ate and so did my family, but while they were noticing their new food bulges and starting diets, I was fine. Nothing changed on my body, I was always my own weight, I had no idea why!
I'd say I've always been around... 7 stone 5. Perhaps when I eat I'd become 7 stone 8 or 9 pounds. However now, I've jumped up to 7stone 12 and a half pounds. Some of you might read this and be like, "seriously shut up, that's nothing.." because yes I guess I understand, whatever it's nothing. I don't exactly care. It's when I notice is that I care and it bothers me. Like when a pair of trousers I was wearing just last month don't fit anymore, and I'm finding a lot of my trousers have become a little tighter and uncomfortable, and I'm going shopping for jeans and they don't fit.
The shopping for jeans bit is fine, I'd just move up a size. It's when I've just recently bought trousers and was wearing then just fine last month, and now they don't fit. I love them trousers.. :( ahh I don't know... I guess it's just really bothering me now.
I haven't exactly been watching what I eat but rather when I eat. I'm being quite strict on myself; Have a good breakfast and DO NOT snack, then have lunch a good 3-4 hours later. Then dinner after another 3 hours. Then something small for the evening. I used to snack loads and eat just out of boredom really. It didn't matter then, but as I'm starting to notice the effects of this, I wanted to change it.
This post will probably anger people or sound ridiculous, or maybe you're experiencing something similar. It's just an odd turning point in my life.. For a person who has never experienced the dreaded life of having weight issues and now I've never been so paranoid. I honestly can say I am not enjoying it. I'd just like to maybe get back to what I was and have those trousers fit me again :) The paranoia scares me a little too. If you're in something similar always remember to stay healthy, you do NOT have to stop eating or change food routine all together.... don't lose yourself in the whole thing and perhaps become a bulimic or anorexic. I wouldn't know personally, but I can sure well say it is not worth it.
Enjoy your food and enjoy living but just keep fit and healthy. That's what I'm trying to do :)
Thanks for reading lovelies!!
Caio for now :)
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