Hi guys, just to let you know, this post will most likely lack grammar and contain a lot of spelling mistakes and messed up punctuation. I just want to type type type my feelings down right now...!
Today is a sad day. Today marks an anniversary of passing away, today marks anger and frustration with the routined life I have to live, and the constant people around me.
I dont mean to sound ungrateful; I am highly happy with my life and love those who truly care about me but it has become obvious that people have lost a lot of care for me, and are simply out to hurt me.
The anniversary marks sadness ofcourse, adding to my quite down in the dumps feeling today. Remembering, because memories are all that I am holding onto right now.
How things change is basically what I am in awe of. How things can change so quickly. 2011 has so far brought me sadness and anger, and yes ofcourse has provided many laughs and excitement, enjoyment and love. But so far, not nothing compared to my idyllic 2010.
Change happens and change "is for the better". In my case, change has destroyed any security I once felt. Change has made me realise the reality of living and almost has me questioning it. The change that has occurred has made me angry, angry at those who told me they would do anything for me and yet have vanished from my company, vanished to others to sail them along, higher up the social hierarchy..
Change right now, is terrible unpleasant. Now, I am just awaiting what other changes 2011 has in store for me...
Apologies and loves, my lovely readers. As usual, I will get over this complicated mood soon enough :)
Thank you and have a wonderful evening with those who truly love you :)
xxx
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