Independent...meh

Hi beauties!
   I hope you're all doing okay. I'm blogging on a break from revision once again! I've been thinking a lot about summer and things, what I hope to do over summer. I am very determined to do lots of things but honestly, I'm doubting it will even happen! I need help way too much, LACKING INDEPENDENCE! :(
Firstly, I have have have to drive. I simply have to. If I don't start this summer I never will. My mind set for this is so ambitious. Basically I want to start into this roughly around the 27th June. (check me out with my precise dates and everything! There's reasons for that though, it's the date that allllll school things are clearly out of the way).
So that means hopefully my temporary license will have arrived by then. Therefore, I can start collecting car books/dvds/CDs all that lovely stuff, and get learning the tricks of the road!!
Then, I have to get out in the car. My brother has already said he'll give me the lowdown on the basics of driving. This NEEDS to be done badly! I have no idea how to do anything. I've only moved a car about a metre in a straight line and the panic that occurred was mental! I'm a nervous wreck behind the wheel.... :(
THEN, I need to book me some professional lessons. Nervey wrecking also... something I never thought I would be doing but it is so necessary. I'm scared though... I'm a pretty awkward person in general and seriously, I don't know how I'll make it through driving with some random man beside me.. AWKWARD AND SCARY!!  and embarrassing - I won't know what I'm doing!!!!

After doing some lessons and learning the tricks of the road I will book my theory test. Hopefully pass this! Then book the actual manual test and hopefully pass that too.... Let's say its about... mid August by this stage? AND I'LL BE A DRIVER BY THE END OF SUMMER. See, I told you it was ambitious. High hopes guys! Such high hopes.
To make this so much worse, the cost is going to be sky high.......and I haven't got a job. The job topic really irritates me because honestly, I have tried LOADS and have failed LOADS! It's so hard to get a job first time when you have absolutely no experience ANYWHERE. But everyone has to start some where! So why is no where giving me a chance to start!? (sigh)

So I need funds. to be independent... Pressure is on!!

are you a driver? Is it easy? :)

Ciao, Ciao!

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