Oh hello all...
It has been a ridiculously long time since I have blogged - sincerest apologies! I guess I sort of forgot I even had this. My last post was July if I am correct? It is now January 2013 -hahahaaaa I doubt many of you would have noticed though. (that I haven't posted I mean!)
I hope you are all doing brilliant in 2013 already. What a year 2012 was. I remember the end of 2011 on New Year's Eve - New Year's being a time where I am usually a bit down and depressed with times moving and changing and what not. I remember the end of 2011 with excitement and anticipation though because I can happily say that 2011 was one of THEE dullest and most depressing years I can remember. Just not a good year. So I was anticipating 2012 and my goodness did it live up to the expectations. Truly a brilliant year.
There were hiccups of course, family and friend tragedies and dramas, but 2012 felt like a year of growing up for me. I passed my driving test, I did my A levels, I got into my first choice university (judging by my last posts - I hadn't told you this yet??) I moved out of my home and into University accommodation and met people who I know will be close friends for 2013, I went on my first "friend-without-family" holiday and spent the most of it drunk and loving every second, and I also got my very first proper job. It's when looking at my past posts that I realise throughout the year of 2011 coming into 2012, I was worried about a lot of these things. I can tell by the way I was writing or what I was saying...
I remember posting the worry about my driving test - but I passed it didn't I?
I remember grumbling constantly about independence and being so frustrated and feeling stuck in my house doing nothing with my life - but I was blessed and lucky enough to get my own car and to finally get a job where I could pop out in my car when ever I pleased, drive myself to work etc.
I remember mentioning frustration about guys (haha - very subtly mentioned might I add!) I remember the specific 'male' who was bothering me at the time, the annoyance I felt and of course the confusion - now I can happily laugh and say that that had no effect on my life today whatsoever. Completely pointless worrying over absolutely nothing. And I don't care about still being single because I am meeting a lot of very fun people and getting to know myself as I do so :)
Basically 2012 was a year of growing, maturing, learning about me and forgetting petty things that seem to have consumed almost months of my brain thought and life, when really they mean absolutely nothing to my future.
I'm focused on exams, on work and on continuously being myself and enjoying the perks of this - I've met so many wonderfully diverse people at university whom I know I would never have met otherwise - it truly is a whole different experience far from school years. Funny, I remember my dad telling me that continuously - to go to uni not only for studying to get a good job, but for the experience. He was definitely right. You just don't get it until you go.... it's free or something. No one judges anyone, people are so much more open to personalities and interests in contrast to school where you had to almost force yourself to fit in with the others...so immature now when I think about it!
2013 will never be able to top 2012 but it can carry on from it. 2012 has set me up to be a fantastic person who will continue throughout 2013. 2013 has been unlucky so far - I won't go into detail, but my luck hasn't been very good! However, I'm positive.
Make your year what you want it to be. Don't dwell on little things that appear so much larger because they probably aren't. You might be sitting in 2014 laughing to yourself about how much you let one little thing consume so much thought the year before. Don't let it, learn to look past things and stay as positive as you can no matter how difficult it may be.
And always be yourself. Throw yourself in the deep end and just do. Don't feel pressured into doing things because of others. Do things in the moment even if you'll dwell on or regret them later. Just tell yourself; "at the time, I said in my head that it felt right. So I did it." You're only human - that's normal.
And good luck, enjoy your year and enjoy life.
I know I will.
Ciao for now, :)
xxx
Monday, 14 January 2013
Monday, 2 July 2012
Garnier Summer Body Gradual Tan
Hii duckies!
On to my second review of a few to come, a product I've been using for about.... hmm.. roughly a few months? I do like my gradual tan - not the sort of person who would put this on for daily use however! I'm fairly tanned myself, it hasn't been extended to its full natural advantage though, due to crap UK weather!
I use gradual tan for nights out instead of instant fake tan, simply because I hate the mess of instant fake tan and the fact that it can run off in the rain etc. Before this, I used to get the L'Oreal gradual tan, or use my mum's Dove one, but bought this in Boots one day whilst on the phone to my sister who recommended it, plus it was pretty cheap compared to the others, (£3-£5 as opposed to £7-£10).
It's really really great - I love it!
The smell takes a bit to get used to, just fruity apricot/peach... I'm not a great fan of orangey/apricotty/peachy smells if you know what I mean, so this isn't the greatest scent if you're like me! But hey, it beats the usual characteristic 'tan' smell, right?
It goes on really smooth and something I noticed in comparison to the L'Oreal one, was that it dries soooo fast! Brilliant if your slapping it on late before bed for the next day/night out, (something I'm usually doing!)
It goes on very even and smooth, a thin layer goes a long way! (on me anyway, being someone who is pretty warm toned in skin anyway).
Problem - the colour itself. I've got used to it, actually I quite like it. But in comparison to your friends' tans on a night out... hmm you may notice it's a little orange? Personally, I feel that makes it sun kissed and more natural. There's something I detest about the instant tan "brown" sort of colour, orange is more... skin coloured? None of us are chocolate brown unless you are that race.. if you get what I mean? So to me the colour epitomises "sun kissed" - really its very nice, do give it a go and don't be put off by my "orange" statement! :)
Overall, I love it, and will defo repurchase! :)
Ciao for nowwwwwww
xxx
On to my second review of a few to come, a product I've been using for about.... hmm.. roughly a few months? I do like my gradual tan - not the sort of person who would put this on for daily use however! I'm fairly tanned myself, it hasn't been extended to its full natural advantage though, due to crap UK weather!
It's really really great - I love it!
The smell takes a bit to get used to, just fruity apricot/peach... I'm not a great fan of orangey/apricotty/peachy smells if you know what I mean, so this isn't the greatest scent if you're like me! But hey, it beats the usual characteristic 'tan' smell, right?
It goes on really smooth and something I noticed in comparison to the L'Oreal one, was that it dries soooo fast! Brilliant if your slapping it on late before bed for the next day/night out, (something I'm usually doing!)
It goes on very even and smooth, a thin layer goes a long way! (on me anyway, being someone who is pretty warm toned in skin anyway).
Problem - the colour itself. I've got used to it, actually I quite like it. But in comparison to your friends' tans on a night out... hmm you may notice it's a little orange? Personally, I feel that makes it sun kissed and more natural. There's something I detest about the instant tan "brown" sort of colour, orange is more... skin coloured? None of us are chocolate brown unless you are that race.. if you get what I mean? So to me the colour epitomises "sun kissed" - really its very nice, do give it a go and don't be put off by my "orange" statement! :)
Overall, I love it, and will defo repurchase! :)
Ciao for nowwwwwww
xxx
Friday, 15 June 2012
Smashbox Photo Finish Primer
A review? Double take here - I am doing a....REVIEW?!At long last I have become inspired, and utterly utterly bored due to crazy ass rain outside. So yes lovelies, back on to my reviews, and I am excited!
Here we go, products that have been tried and tested by yours truly :)
This stuff is a daily use for me; primer's are bases for foundation (simpleton!). Before this.. I think I may have mentioned or reviewed my previous primer? It's been that long since I've used it I can't even remember it's specific name! It was from the L'Oreal range though, and was clear and mattifying :) Weeellllll pretty ladies it is long gone. This smashbox one is incredible. I started using it after my mummy bought me it (thanks lovely!) to give it a go, she was all.. the usual.. "the girl at the counter recommended it for young skin!! she said it's brilliant!!" and I was all "Mum, you say that for everything you buy me......" ugh. I thought, this stuff is expensive so I doubt I'll buy it again. It took a while to get used to because the texture is so different from my L'Oreal one which actually feels greasier despite it's "Mattifying" claims. It was only after a month or so using smashbox, when I returned to my L'Oreal on a spur of the moment day, that I reeeeeallly noticed the difference and it was huge! L'Oreal just felt so odd and greasy and strange compared to this. This dries faster, smooths amazingly and really keeps my makeup smooth and matte for much longer than L'oreal or without any primer (having said that, ofcourse I still go shiny because I have the oiliest face EVER).
Overall a brilliant product and sadly I feel I will be forced to repurchase this because it's so awesome. A little goes a long way though, so I feel it's worth its price :)
(price is around £20-£24 I believe, dear for makeup in my opinion, coming from a drugstore cosmetic buyer! ;) )
and VOILA! There it is. :)
If you've tried this or are interested in trying, please let me know I'd love to hear what you think of it :)
MORE REVIEWS TO COME!! (promise)
Ciao for Now little beauties.......xxx
Here we go, products that have been tried and tested by yours truly :)
Smashbox Photo Finish Primer
Overall a brilliant product and sadly I feel I will be forced to repurchase this because it's so awesome. A little goes a long way though, so I feel it's worth its price :)
(price is around £20-£24 I believe, dear for makeup in my opinion, coming from a drugstore cosmetic buyer! ;) )
and VOILA! There it is. :)
If you've tried this or are interested in trying, please let me know I'd love to hear what you think of it :)
MORE REVIEWS TO COME!! (promise)
Ciao for Now little beauties.......xxx
Saturday, 2 June 2012
Sweetening my mood a little :)
Hi everyone!
I'll start by... hmm apologising? For my last post! Well not really apologizing, because I needed to process what I was feeling somewhere! But just posting now to say that my mood has sweetened :) I am most definitely not in that bad mindset anymore!
How are you all? Hope you've been enjoying the lovely heat wave we had recently! It's sort of over now isn't it? Sadddd times!
MY SUMMER HAS JUST BEGUN!!! :):):)
So feeling very pleased and free, despite the decline in weather... bad times!
Hopefully will be going out lots and lots to celebrate :) Had a brilliant night with the girls earlier in the week and it was such an excellent way to start summer! So good :D
Enjoy your weekend lovelies! Keep me updated on Summer event ideas :)
Ciao for now lovelies!!
x x x
I'll start by... hmm apologising? For my last post! Well not really apologizing, because I needed to process what I was feeling somewhere! But just posting now to say that my mood has sweetened :) I am most definitely not in that bad mindset anymore!
How are you all? Hope you've been enjoying the lovely heat wave we had recently! It's sort of over now isn't it? Sadddd times!
MY SUMMER HAS JUST BEGUN!!! :):):)
So feeling very pleased and free, despite the decline in weather... bad times!
Hopefully will be going out lots and lots to celebrate :) Had a brilliant night with the girls earlier in the week and it was such an excellent way to start summer! So good :D
Enjoy your weekend lovelies! Keep me updated on Summer event ideas :)
Ciao for now lovelies!!
x x x
Friday, 18 May 2012
when you really don't know what to do.
Hi everyone :)
Hope you're all doing lovely. Just sitting up in bed with my fairy lights and candles burning ... was trying to learn some info for my exam next week as today I utterly utterly failed! (once again, I'm finding it awfully hard to get motivated).
Thing is, these exams really matter, and I think it's the stress and worry that's actually preventing me from being able to revise. I seem to have got it into my head that there is no time - like really, in facts, it is impossible for me to sufficiently learn the information enough in the time I have. Impossible. You can't do it, so why even bother? Why stress yourself out and work your ass off when in the end you will fail and somehow that will be worse. I always feel as though if I do a slightly crap exam, but I can say to myself, 'well you didn't work for it did you?' - it makes me feel better. There is something so frustrating and horribly sad when you have genuinely been so motivated and put your ass into work only to come out with failure. That's how I'm feeling right now. These are so important but I feel it is physically impossible at this stage in time to do well. It's too late. So now I just feel helpless.
I'm not saying I didn't work, because I have. All year round I really have. Making notes, keeping up to date - I am most definitely not a crammer. It's just the work itself seems so much harder than I've ever challenged before and I am overwhelmed to be honest.. yes I have loads of lovely done out notes but the information itself is impossible to me.
I've done 2 exams already (YAY slowly getting there) and well to be honest they were supposed to be my easiest - my passion, what I'm good at, what I did so much work for. Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, they went awful. In the moment I just managed to mess up both papers so badly. Was it nerves or stupidity I don't know. I think that's what's really thrown me. I just want to rewind time and start over because I really think if I had got off to a better start, I would be in a much better position right now....
I don't know. I don't feel like myself and I hate myself these days. Hate my life these days hate my mindset, everything is just really, really getting me down. I can assure you guys I am clean minded and healthy!!!! Don't go panicking that I'm going to do anything manic or tragic because I won't - honest :)
Just bla. I don't know who to talk to or how to register or articulate what I'm feeling. Never have I ever got so messed up in the mind about exams .. it's scaring me! Throwing me off course big time!
Hope any of you guys aren't feeling the same... it's horrible. Please comment if you are!! :)
GOOD LUCK for you exams, and hopefully my next post will be a jovial one celebrating the beginning of my Summer :) I cannot wait
Ciao for now :)
(no copyright intended :))
xxx
Hope you're all doing lovely. Just sitting up in bed with my fairy lights and candles burning ... was trying to learn some info for my exam next week as today I utterly utterly failed! (once again, I'm finding it awfully hard to get motivated).
Thing is, these exams really matter, and I think it's the stress and worry that's actually preventing me from being able to revise. I seem to have got it into my head that there is no time - like really, in facts, it is impossible for me to sufficiently learn the information enough in the time I have. Impossible. You can't do it, so why even bother? Why stress yourself out and work your ass off when in the end you will fail and somehow that will be worse. I always feel as though if I do a slightly crap exam, but I can say to myself, 'well you didn't work for it did you?' - it makes me feel better. There is something so frustrating and horribly sad when you have genuinely been so motivated and put your ass into work only to come out with failure. That's how I'm feeling right now. These are so important but I feel it is physically impossible at this stage in time to do well. It's too late. So now I just feel helpless.
I'm not saying I didn't work, because I have. All year round I really have. Making notes, keeping up to date - I am most definitely not a crammer. It's just the work itself seems so much harder than I've ever challenged before and I am overwhelmed to be honest.. yes I have loads of lovely done out notes but the information itself is impossible to me.
I've done 2 exams already (YAY slowly getting there) and well to be honest they were supposed to be my easiest - my passion, what I'm good at, what I did so much work for. Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, they went awful. In the moment I just managed to mess up both papers so badly. Was it nerves or stupidity I don't know. I think that's what's really thrown me. I just want to rewind time and start over because I really think if I had got off to a better start, I would be in a much better position right now....
I don't know. I don't feel like myself and I hate myself these days. Hate my life these days hate my mindset, everything is just really, really getting me down. I can assure you guys I am clean minded and healthy!!!! Don't go panicking that I'm going to do anything manic or tragic because I won't - honest :)
Just bla. I don't know who to talk to or how to register or articulate what I'm feeling. Never have I ever got so messed up in the mind about exams .. it's scaring me! Throwing me off course big time!
Hope any of you guys aren't feeling the same... it's horrible. Please comment if you are!! :)
GOOD LUCK for you exams, and hopefully my next post will be a jovial one celebrating the beginning of my Summer :) I cannot wait
Ciao for now :)
xxx
Saturday, 5 May 2012
Wow, new look?
Hiiiiii guys!
How are you all? So I've just signed into blogspot and holy moly, it's all changed?! This reminds me of the twitter/facebook changes except they were much easier to grasp - I am oh so very confused so give me some time to get settled!
Hope you are all doing well, once again I am typing a blabbery post (no WAY?!). Exam stress has hit, it's that time of year sadly. Everyone's out partying tonight but really I'm a little bit too worried seeing as my first exam is in 9 days...... if I party now, I won't be able to stop ! So best if I just keep my head down, yes? I hope it's all worth it :)
So looking forward to summer. How strange as I remember writing on this last Summer being excited, but how things were so different!! Brilliant as I can drive this summer and have an extra month off (yesss!) ahhhh just gushing over it, I really cannot wait! Holiday with all my friends as well to send us off from school :) Getting older guys it's so weird! University excitement and everything ahh!
Keep well & Keep reading & Thanks for visiting as always, means oh so very much :)
"CIAO FOR NOW!!!"
x x x
How are you all? So I've just signed into blogspot and holy moly, it's all changed?! This reminds me of the twitter/facebook changes except they were much easier to grasp - I am oh so very confused so give me some time to get settled!
Hope you are all doing well, once again I am typing a blabbery post (no WAY?!). Exam stress has hit, it's that time of year sadly. Everyone's out partying tonight but really I'm a little bit too worried seeing as my first exam is in 9 days...... if I party now, I won't be able to stop ! So best if I just keep my head down, yes? I hope it's all worth it :)
So looking forward to summer. How strange as I remember writing on this last Summer being excited, but how things were so different!! Brilliant as I can drive this summer and have an extra month off (yesss!) ahhhh just gushing over it, I really cannot wait! Holiday with all my friends as well to send us off from school :) Getting older guys it's so weird! University excitement and everything ahh!
Keep well & Keep reading & Thanks for visiting as always, means oh so very much :)
"CIAO FOR NOW!!!"
x x x
Sunday, 25 March 2012
Frustration is an understatement.
'Ello 'ello 'ello!
What even was that? I have no idea. How are all you lovely readers? I realise I am being a complete and utter bore-more again as I am aware I have previously promised some beauty posts, with the smashbox photo finish primer being tops on that list, but once again I am lacking in motivation and inspiration in that department. Sooo.. thought I'd just come on and vent my feelings to you all once again. I will give you some time now to exit this blog...... bahaha :)
I am frustrated. (NOT IN THAT WAY..LOL). Ugh I just don't even know. You will be aware that I passed my driving test (yay) but, well, just nothing. I am insured on my brother's car and am free to drive it as he is highly generous and giving me a lend of it when ever I please. I have drove probably like.. 7 miles total in the past 2 weeks, with a sibling or parent accompanying me and I can assure you each trip was far from smooth!! I don't know what's wrong with me. I am genuinely afraid to drive alone. Genuinely. It's not even fear or anything, I'm not afraid of crashing or doing things wrong because let's face it, I passed - I did something right obviously! And it wasn't even a flooky pass - I know people who got like 14 minors and passed. I GOT 5. So I did okay, If I do say so myself...
However, I can't seem to place my finger on the problem. My brother is away now all week, his car is literally sitting outside vacant. He chose to get a train up to the city this week for work etc. so he's staying there. He asked me to take him to the train station and I wanted to........but I said no. Why? Because dropping him to the station meant that I would have to endure the journey back to my house - alone. AND THAT THOUGHT JUST SENT MY HEART RACING.
It just serious lack of confidence or something. I thought, hey, once I pass I'll have a few driving trips with my dad just to adjust, then I'll be a free little flower and get used to it alone. But.. it's like I can't even drive with family. I can. I just don't want to. I'll be honest, I sort of hate it? I don't feel like they're judging me or anything because they're quite the opposite - awfully supportive and saying I'm doing "brilliant, for not being in a car since 2 months of passing! WELL DONE" etcetcetc. I just can't relax. I'm not even concentrating on the road, I'm concentrating on making their journey a pleasure. To try and chat and look like I'm in control when the whole time I am literally shitting my pants. (bahahaha sorry. You understand though...). They're my family for heavens sake, why am I such a nervous state???
I feel like I need to just do one trip by myself and just be myself in the car and learn how to work it and get used to it. (my brother's car is pretty old and difficult compared to the brand new smooth running diesel number I did my lessons in!) It's been an absolutely beautiful day and is now a beautiful evening and I'd absolutely love to take a trip into town and practice the journey alone so maybe, just maybe, I could take myself into school tomorrow and that would just enlighten my confidence to a whole new level. Just can't picture me doing it though. Half imagining driving into town and then getting stuck or enduring some sort of problem and having to do the call of shame to my family.. like, yeah er... come and get me, sorry I rushed off so fast like "look at me I'm so confident" when really, I STILL NEED YOUR ASSISTANCE!!
I really don't know. I've passed. I did good. Why can't I keep up that confidence or believe in myself? This is something I've wanted for so long and it's finally here and I finally have a vehicle I can take for spins but I just can't bring myself to do it... I don't want to be one of those people who just doesn't drive... I feel as though I shouldn't have passed or something because I'm genuinely not that good.....
Anyone on the same boat? Some loving advice would be welcomed this way :)
Hope you are all doing well and I promise promise promise I will start beauty blogging and what not in the very near future! Also lots of exam things going on at the mo but I promise I will find the time :)
Thanks for reading as usual you wonderful little lambs!
Ciao for now :)
xxx
What even was that? I have no idea. How are all you lovely readers? I realise I am being a complete and utter bore-more again as I am aware I have previously promised some beauty posts, with the smashbox photo finish primer being tops on that list, but once again I am lacking in motivation and inspiration in that department. Sooo.. thought I'd just come on and vent my feelings to you all once again. I will give you some time now to exit this blog...... bahaha :)
I am frustrated. (NOT IN THAT WAY..LOL). Ugh I just don't even know. You will be aware that I passed my driving test (yay) but, well, just nothing. I am insured on my brother's car and am free to drive it as he is highly generous and giving me a lend of it when ever I please. I have drove probably like.. 7 miles total in the past 2 weeks, with a sibling or parent accompanying me and I can assure you each trip was far from smooth!! I don't know what's wrong with me. I am genuinely afraid to drive alone. Genuinely. It's not even fear or anything, I'm not afraid of crashing or doing things wrong because let's face it, I passed - I did something right obviously! And it wasn't even a flooky pass - I know people who got like 14 minors and passed. I GOT 5. So I did okay, If I do say so myself...
However, I can't seem to place my finger on the problem. My brother is away now all week, his car is literally sitting outside vacant. He chose to get a train up to the city this week for work etc. so he's staying there. He asked me to take him to the train station and I wanted to........but I said no. Why? Because dropping him to the station meant that I would have to endure the journey back to my house - alone. AND THAT THOUGHT JUST SENT MY HEART RACING.
It just serious lack of confidence or something. I thought, hey, once I pass I'll have a few driving trips with my dad just to adjust, then I'll be a free little flower and get used to it alone. But.. it's like I can't even drive with family. I can. I just don't want to. I'll be honest, I sort of hate it? I don't feel like they're judging me or anything because they're quite the opposite - awfully supportive and saying I'm doing "brilliant, for not being in a car since 2 months of passing! WELL DONE" etcetcetc. I just can't relax. I'm not even concentrating on the road, I'm concentrating on making their journey a pleasure. To try and chat and look like I'm in control when the whole time I am literally shitting my pants. (bahahaha sorry. You understand though...). They're my family for heavens sake, why am I such a nervous state???
I feel like I need to just do one trip by myself and just be myself in the car and learn how to work it and get used to it. (my brother's car is pretty old and difficult compared to the brand new smooth running diesel number I did my lessons in!) It's been an absolutely beautiful day and is now a beautiful evening and I'd absolutely love to take a trip into town and practice the journey alone so maybe, just maybe, I could take myself into school tomorrow and that would just enlighten my confidence to a whole new level. Just can't picture me doing it though. Half imagining driving into town and then getting stuck or enduring some sort of problem and having to do the call of shame to my family.. like, yeah er... come and get me, sorry I rushed off so fast like "look at me I'm so confident" when really, I STILL NEED YOUR ASSISTANCE!!
I really don't know. I've passed. I did good. Why can't I keep up that confidence or believe in myself? This is something I've wanted for so long and it's finally here and I finally have a vehicle I can take for spins but I just can't bring myself to do it... I don't want to be one of those people who just doesn't drive... I feel as though I shouldn't have passed or something because I'm genuinely not that good.....
Anyone on the same boat? Some loving advice would be welcomed this way :)
Hope you are all doing well and I promise promise promise I will start beauty blogging and what not in the very near future! Also lots of exam things going on at the mo but I promise I will find the time :)
Thanks for reading as usual you wonderful little lambs!
Ciao for now :)
xxx
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